No more News

I have figured out slowly but surely that I do not like to listen to or watch the local news anymore. It seems like every time I turn it on I hear the one thing I don't want to hear....about all the people who do the things that make scared. I enjoy being up to speed about what is going on in our country and I believe as a citizen...we owe it to ourselves to be educated on the issues of our world. I have decided for Haleigh Millwee though...the local things that go on around me...are no longer for my ears. Don't get me wrong...I love hearing about the good others are doing and a sweet story....but I think if I hear about one more wrongful death or one more missing woman or child...It may send me over the top. I know that my personal incident has effected my life and changed me forever....but it's just here lately that the news really gets under my skin. It's gotten to the point that I have to leave the room if it is on. Maybe it's my way of protecting myself and my thoughts. So often during the day ..my thoughts are about my safety, my fears, memories of the way my life was before. Here's a peak into my random mind: I've just gotten back to wear I'm working out hard..doing two a days and really watching what I put in my mouth....and it hit me...I'm exactly where I was fitness wise..last May...right before my attack. See I had been doing two a day work outs the month leading up to my attack....and I was in the best shape I'd ever been in....I often joke that I was preparing for swimsuit season..but the Lord was preparing me to fight for my life. All that to say...it's just weird...weird to be back where I was....I feel exactly like I did before everything......and that scares me. I don't want to ever live that again...and I guess I am getting closer to the one year mark...and I've been thinking about everything more than normal. It could have something to do with the fact that trial is soon..very soon. I am preparing myself for those big days in April....and leaning on the Lord more than ever. I know that I do not usually blog about what happened on May 16th...but for the next month or so ....it may be the topic of conversation. I find that it helps me to blog about my feelings....it keeps me from hiding from them and brings everything to the surface. I am blessed beyond words to have such a great support system. I am surrounded by people who love me and are praying unceasingly until this man is brought to justice...I am thankful! Thankful for a sovereign God, wonderful family and friends and one great Prosecutor....I couldn't ask for more! For now...I am praying all throughout my day, memorizing scripture and not watching the news :)
Goodnight!

Baby Girl Post

I am super duper excited ....my friend Maegen is having a baby girl! Laney Grace Post is due on June 24th...and I get to be her god -mother!!! Do you know what this does for my heart? Pitter Patter ..Pitter Patter!!! LOVE!!! I can't wait to be involved in sweet little Laney's life! I am hosting a shower for Maegen in April....so I have been really busy planning that and checking things off my list. I'm slightly bummed because I'm hosting the shower at Logan's house...(Which I love)....I just wish I was already living there ...so the house could be "Haleigh Ready"....you know decor in tact! Right now it still "Logan Style" and it just doesn't suit me for a shower for a baby girl! I am thankful to have a place to host.....I sound ungrateful and I am not! Maybe I could hang some pearls and a tutu on the many deer that will be watching us from their mount on the wall at the shower! What do you think? ha! Okay...so back to Laney.....Laney's MOTHER...is killing me...I MEAN KILLING ME....she doesn't love the girly girly stuff....you know that ruffles, lace, ginormous bows, the tutu's...PINK...etc.......a little goes a long way with Maegen..and I'm like the bigger and pinker that better! I've had to tone down my shopping spree's for Miss L...because I want her mommy to be excited when she opens her gifts....but I think when Laney comes to Aunt Barbie's house to play...we may pull out the pink tutu's and not tell :) Oh FYI..that's what Laney is going to call me ..."Aunt Barbie"...Aunt Haleigh is too boring...oh ..and Logan is "Uncle Bubba"......if you know anything about me and Logan...then you know how PERFECTLY these nicknames suit us! Yay for Showers, Yay for god-daughters and yay for PINK......just wish Laney would hurry up and get here so we can play!

Happy Wednesday!

I'm Back!

Maybe my new years resolution would be to be a better fellow-blogger...ha! We will see! I always feel good when I take time to blog whatever comes to mind....just never seem to take time to do it! So...I'm back for now! My world has been turned upside down, forwards, backwards and every which way you can imagine. I got engaged to my favoritest person (most days).....and gave two weeks notice at my beloved job :(...packed my bags and headed for Hog town! Oh ...Fayetteville...how I've missed you! I have loved everything about my move....EXCEPT for this crazy winter wonderland we have been living in! I love snow....for about a day! This back and forth of pretty....I want to sit on my porch and drink lemonade weather...back to frigid, may lose a body part to frost bite weather...Not for me!
I have enjoyed these days of being cozied up though..and they could not have come at a better time......Logan had urgent surgery and I have been sick with a bad sinus infection. God knows when you need to rest and in a way being cooped up...has been a blessing. Honestly...it's the only way to keep Logan still...he hates wasting time and not being productive.....so recovery has been a challenge for him!

Thank you for the prayers and good wishes...Logan in much better now!

Back to winter......Today was Ground Hog day and ...I LOVE that he didn't see his shadow....SPRING will be here soon! I am so much more productive in the fall and spring...but during the winter...I might as well be hibernating....I HATE BEING COLD! HATE IT! So how do we survive these next several weeks of living in Antarctica.....here are my 3 favs...hope they help you:

1. Hot Chocolate: I have fallen in love! I never ever drink it...but it's all I've wanted since I've moved here....I bought 4 boxes the other day at Harps!

2. Rose Salve by C.O. Bigalow...LOVE LOVE LOVE this miracle stuff! MY lips have never been the same....go buy some! (well...if you can get to the store and aren't stuck)

3. Eat some yummy food....preferably fattenting....Paula Deen style food....it will make you smile!
...I was supposed to start a healthy eating and workout plan ...two days ago...February 1st......and it came and went....and so far....I don't seem to be heartbroken....seriously though...I've got to get motivated!

Thankful

I did not have a chance to blog for Thanksgiving...but I realized that everyday is "Thanksgiving" for me...( so it's ok to be a little late)! I am thankful for the gift of life , God's grace and my amazing friends! God has blessed me with a loving, supportive boyfriend, who is my whole world! He has given me a family who has always taken care of and provided me with a wonderful life...but this year my girlfriends kept coming to my mind on Thanksgiving day....and the bonds that we have that are unbreakable! These girls have sustained me...been there through thick and thin. Some of the best days of my life have been spent with this group. The truth is sometimes guys just don't like to talk to the extent that girls do, and sometimes you don't want to hear what your famly has to say...but girlfriends....they will talk for hours on end and even re-visit the same topic over and over because they love you! My girlfriends are my soul mates...and I thank the Lord for the blessing that each of them is and the uniqe, individual gifts they offer...it makes our group that much sweeter! I thought of each of these beautiful women...and where they might be spending there Thanksgiving last Thursday, and even though spent far apart..one thing is for certain:

"Seasons change, people come into your life and people go, but it is comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart, and if you are very lucky, a plane ride away."

Happy Belated Thanksgiving to my best girls!

Painted Pumpkins II

A few of my other inspirations! Enjoy..and Happy Fall!

Painted Pumpkins

I love Fall! It is my absolute favorite time of year! I love the weather, the leaves changing, football, the baking, and most of all the DECOR! I know that we are all fans of the "original jack-o-lantern"......and I am too...but here lately I'm obsessed with painted pumpkins! I know this is not a new concept at all...and I have been painting my pumpkins for the past 3 years...but I really got excited about all the different possibilities that you have with this creative idea! (AND ...you don't have to throw your pumpkin away after Halloween..it will last right through Thanksgiving...which saves both time and MONEY!) These are just a few idea's I came across....very simple...and very cute! (I'm thinking of hosting a painted pumpkin party...next fall)

And we meet again.....

Okay....here I am almost a year later from my last post! ha! I sorta got out of my bogging phase...and then realized how I really want to be an official "blogger"! (even if no one reads it ..in a way it is kind of therapeutic). 2010 has been one crazy year! As many of you know I experienced the unimaginable......my home invasion/attempted kidnapping. Yes, my la-ti-da world was turned upside down, but by the grace of God I have started piecing it back together again. There are days...oh there are days! I am still in the middle of a trial (that will more than likely go into the middle of next year), I am battling the daily emotion of fear and the thought of "will I ever be able to go grocery shopping alone again?" Needless to say I am picking up the pieces...and learning that the Lord can take the worst of circumstances and use them for His glory. I know that my life will never be the same....and that statement is bitter sweet.....I miss my innocence....the girl who thought that "nothing like that will ever happen to me"......but I love who God is molding me into....a woman who knows that bad things can happen to good people and that experiences will leave a lasting impression. A woman who knows that I am loved by my Savior and that he is walking me through this journey step by step, day by day.....He never lets go. I have learned "normal" will never be again...however I am creating a "new normal".....and that is ok...in fact it can be a blessing in disguise.

Blogging is going to be part of my "new normal"......I have officially decided....let's hope this goes a little better than my 2009 attempt.