Forgiveness

Forgiveness. Such a simple word, yet it holds so much meaning. It's also the word that won't leave me alone. I have things in my life...things that eat at me...why? Because in order to be free of those things..one would have to forgive. Harder than it sounds.... trust me. Here is the struggle.....how do you forgive people that have so maliciously hurt you? How do you forgive someone who has no remorse? I can SO forgive someone who comes to me and appogizes..hands down..not hard! But that other scenario.....not so easy. I'm heavy hearted on the subject because guess what?! GOD FORIGVES ME EVERY DAY ...WITHOUT ANY SECOND THOUGHT! A God who I hurt day in and day out by my thoughts, words, lack of time for Him or even just insecurites...yet He forgives ME...and wipes my slate clean...AND HE LOVES ME EVEN MORE EACH TIME!!! Oh how I wish I could apply that to areas of my life..with people that I desperately want to forgive....but for whatever reason...CAN. NOT. So here I sit....the unforgiving soul that I am...hoping and praying that one day I will have the courage to just. let. it. go. And be free. Unforgiveness is like bondage...yet sometimes we just can't let go! Why is that? i wish I knew.
Favorite Quote:
"I've been thinking about what I'd say
to you, should we ever speak again.
I thought of all the mean things that'd
make you feel guilty. You know me.
I take a problem and chew on it until
all the flavor's gone......and then I stick it in my hair."
-Divine Secrets of the Yaya Sisterhood

That's exactly how I feel right now. Yes it's funny....but when you get right down to it...IT'S SO NOT! Someone once told me something about forgiveness...and it made perfect sense. They said: "Everytime you don't forgive and you hold onto your bitterness...it's like letting Satan win that battle. Unforgiveness is not from God....it is not the outcome that He hopes for. Don't let Satan win that battle..give it to the Lord and let Him heal you and allow Him to open your heart to show forgiveness as He as shown us."

Now I'm just searching my soul...talking to God every chance I get ...and surrounding my mind in scripture....praying for that difficult task! There is an upside: YAY! I know we are not called to forget....God does not ask us to be fools...THANKFULLY!!! So now off to work on my heart...and trying to allow forgiveness to take up residence there so that I can try to apply to my specific situations!OH. BOY. CAN'T. WAIT!!!! ; )